We are under contract!!!!What exciting news to share. I realize there are some of you that could care less but this is HUGE news! We are moving back to Montana!
I have steered away from things too personal here, but hey, what the heck why don't I share a little with ya. We're all friends here right? Right!
Well, let me just tell you a little about Lineman's job. It requires him to travel. A lot. In the month of February he was home for one weekend. In January he left for work after the new year and came home for one weekend that month. So on and so forth. It has been like this for months and months and months. Imagine me here with these three boys. Adorable yes. Hand fulls, yes. I struggle to take care of them and keep the house in running order. Taking care of them, worried about the move, and keeping the house in perfect show condition has had it's toll on me. Just recently I had to go into the doctor because I was having chest pain. I would go to sleep at night not knowing if I would wake in the morning. It was scary. I went to the doctor, did blood tests, had an EKG, the works. Guess what my chest pain was? Nope, not a heart attack. It was stress. Stress. And here I thought I was handling things pretty well. Apparently my body was telling me a totally different story.
Now while I've had a hard go of it, I know Lineman has had an equally tough time. Though his stress was the complete opposite of mine, I believe. I may be putting words in his mouth, but these are my thoughts on it. He is gone from us and unable to do the things a father and a husband needs to do. Unable to take care of the house. Unable to play with his kids, read to them, work in the shop with them. Unable to tuck them in, help with homework. Unable to hug and kiss them and love them. I know the emotional stress of this alone has been nearly unbearable. (yes, Lineman, I know).
I know he has dearly missed doing the dishes, sweeping and vacuuming. Cleaning the toilets and picking up toys. Oh, and how he loves to change diapers. Just ask him, it makes him cry when he thinks of how many diapers he has missed changing.
So, while his job will still be the same job, a LOT will be different! A lot!!! I am so excited for this move now and what it means to our family. If there's something going on at school, Lineman will be able to make it. Sports games, Sunday mornings, reading books, playing games, you name it, he will be able to do those things much easier now. We will see his parents and family more. We will see my mom even more. We can take the kids up to the farm. I see the boys fishing for hours and hours on end. Oh, and I think I may even get to sleep in once in a while. The quality of family life will be so greatly improved and for that I am feeling truly blessed.
So, while I will miss many things about our life here, I look forward to this new chapter in our life and what it means for our family.